"You can be lonely even when you are loved by many people, since you are still not anybody’s one and only."
i get used to it. if we go on dates on a regular basis i wouldnt call us ‘dating’ but i will get used to us being together. but when you leave me because you find a shiny new toy, or when you realize that theres no one to compete against for my attention, or when you find out that i tend to see one person at a time and not fool around, or when you just want to tell your old jokes to someone new, i hope you understand that i will get used to your absence again. i will snap back to my routines. i will move along. and maybe you’d think that’s okay but it’s not. it never is. just like the ones who came before you, i got used to the pain and longing, that i only see someone like you as a distraction not a necessity. ive been left so many times that id rather be left than leave because i know how to handle that kind of pain. i get used to it. i get used to it just like how i got used to my dad coming home high on crack. it’s never okay, but i get used to it. i guess all im saying here is next time you see me, dont pity me. dont look at me as if i was the girl you got bored off and tossed away. i knew the first time you took me out that it wasnt gonna last. honey, i dragged it as long as i could and i missed you a little when you left, but i was back to my old ways the next day. all i’m saying is dont think so highly of yourself for leaving me. especially when you weren’t really a loss.
"If I have to ask for your attention, then I don’t even want it."
"Never apologize for how you feel. No one can control how they feel. The sun doesn’t apologize for being the sun. The rain doesn’t say sorry for falling. Feelings just are."